[ PHALKUNZ'S BLOG ]: 2005

Monday, November 07, 2005

Friday, October 28, 2005

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

AUT Akoranga Dr Hostel At Night

12AM

4AM

Monday, October 24, 2005

Tow Away

Tow Away, originally uploaded by phalkunz.

Move your ass out of here Mr.Duckie or you will be towed.

Sunday, October 23, 2005

I had planned with my roommate Waza about going to Hamilton for like 2 months ago but we never had a chance to do so because I was so damn busy with my study. But tonite, after having steamboat (dinner) someone who i can't recall mentioned about Hamilton on the way back home from the restaurant. I was like "ok". And then Waza made a u-turn to go back south heading Hamilton. We went there just for a ride, nothing particular. We were texting some mates telling them about the ride but they didn't believe because it was so spontaneous. We dropped by Hamilton city center for some photoz in order to have proof that we was there tonite but there was nothing there to say something about Hamilton then we had a ride around then we saw a street direction sign said "The University of Waikato". We decided to go there to see what uni was like. We didn't get access to all parts of the uni but yeah the parts that we saw were nice. It was like a small village. Waza and Becky kept complaining about AUT for not having things that Waikato Uni has. Well, I'm in AU hehehe :p nothing to complain about but yeah I quite like the uni's scenary. It looks so peaceful. In addition, we had some photos there and they can prove that we were in Hamilton muahahhaha.
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Saturday, October 22, 2005

White Roses

white_roses.JPG, originally uploaded by phalkunz.

I made these 2 roses out of tissue.

Monday, October 17, 2005

Unpredictable

I have been lying on my bed thinking of what have happened so far
And there is always a picture of you flicking between my every thought
It is maybe the reason why I could not be losing sleep
I am now asking myself questions again
Why am I thinking of you? Was it real you that I met?
Or is it real you who I am waiting for right now?
Today is just another day I feel down and lonely
Which yesterday I was very content because you made me so.

You pulled me up from you a dark side of life
You brought the sun to my cloudy day
You showed what is life supposed to be
I started to smile again
I thought you had changed my life forever since that day

But then today everything changed again
It's all upside down, in a way that I could not believe it
You made me believe that everything you gave was true
You gave me hope but now you took it all away
And now you show me that it was just a dream, it was so unreal
And I have to accept the fact that I am brought to where I was ignored
to where I was left alone, to where I was abandoned.
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Sunday, October 16, 2005

Nightmare

I just repost this writing of mine which was posted on my previous blog. It was written on 11/Nov/2002.

Last night, and like the other nights, I dreamt about my first girl of my life.
She came up with a beautiful innocent smile. She liked, cared about, and loved me. We hanged out and shared everything together. She talked to me in nice and sweet voice. I really remember her smile, her beautiful smile. This was driving me insane. I wanted to be close to her and hoped nothing was going to break us apart. This made me think that she was the one for me the one that I would spend the rest of my life with. I loved her with every beat of my heart. But who knows what tomorrow will bring?

We went through the good and the bad times together. Until one day…

Sadly, the time had come. She just disappeared. I was looking for her everywhere. I was so worried. Day without her seemed like year. The next day, a friend of her told me they found her. I was so excited to see the love of my life again. I thought I would not let her go away even in a shot of time.

Even more sadly, she turned up to be a very different kind of girl. She didn’t even talk to me but to other friends she was just like before. I wondered why? Did I do anything wrong? No, both in my real life and in my first minutes sweet dream and last minutes nightmare. Never that I could possibly hurt her physically or emotionally.

She went away from me without words. All my life was turned up side down. It was killing me. I am just a man I have a heart. It cut me deep inside and it hurt so bad.

That was my dream is all about. After I woke up I felt like there was nothing left for me in this world and I felt like crying. I hate that dream. I want to get rid of these feelings and the dream. I thought I got over it once already. But now, It keep haunting me over and over again. I have enough of this. Why doesn’t it leave me alone?

I want her no more in my memory. Only if I could program myself to delete that part of my memory I would but I couldn’t. Is it the feeling that will last in me forever? Everybody says “The first cut is the deepest.” And I have to admit it.

To Cinema

Friday, October 14, 2005

Waterfront

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Another Snapshot of My PB [photo]

Saturday, October 08, 2005

The Most Invaluable Present in My Life

I just opened my door [@5:00pm]. I found a box of something on the floor next to my door. It was wrapped up in an unattractive way, in a plastic bag and newspaper. I picked it up and there's a note says "Bong, thought you need cheering up... too bad, there are no subtitles - HAHA - :p ENJOY!!! [love heart] Lynny."

I knew there was definitely something special in there coz she told me she had a suprise for me. I was unwrapping it impatiently and finally there I saw the thing I wanted for my birthday [as i posted in my blog earlier] and omg I suddenly burst into tears. I tried to stop myself from crying but I couldn't help it (even now as I am writing this). How weak and sensitive am I? I knew she knew I was gonna cry that's why the present comes with face tissue as well. I never thought on earth that someone could give me such a thing that most people think it is so trivial yet very invaluable to me but this girl just did it. How sweet! In my heart, I wanna go and give her a hug but i just don't want her to see me crying. She just messaged me but I pretent that I had not seen it yet because I didn't want to come over now either.

I don't know what to say or thank. There's no word that can describe.
But just wanna say you have given me the love that I never had before.
Luv you alwayz sweetie *hugz*

Friday, October 07, 2005

Food Court [photo]

food court in Henderson Westfield mall

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Some Questions In My Head

Why does it hurt when it don't even touch me ?
Why do I wait for something when I know for sure that it's not gonna happen ?
Why do I hang on to something that don't even exist ?
Why does it end when there is no one to stop it ?
Why do I listen to this song when It makes me sad ?
Why do I think of you when I don't even know you ?
Why do I love you when I don't even know how to love myself ?
Why do I let myself fall when there is no one to catch me ?
Why do I feel the pain when you are cut ?
Why do I stay here when I know I don't belong here ?
Why do I torture myself when I know it hurts ?
Why do I live when I don't know what I am living for ?
Why do I ask myself all these questions when I know i can't answer ?

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Tomorrow

I know I have found you, a love not a lust
You opened up my eyes to a whole new world
I started to realize that what I have had and come acrossed was the effect of desire
It was all like illusion, it comes and goes
And now there you are here
And what I wanna say won't come out of my mouth
Maybe tomorrow it is the right time for me to tell you
But...

Will you believe me if I say love you?
Will you accept me and let me in?
I know it sounds so ridiculous to you but it is so true
Does a month or a year help me to prove that this is real?
Or even longer than that?

People say that time can prove everything
It will prove what I am giving you now is from my heart
But what if I disappear forever by the end of today
Whether you will believe me or not
Whether you will accept me or not
It'll be all useless, it'll be all in vain
Everything will become just a memory
A memory of a horrendous mistake that we made.

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Sunday, October 02, 2005

Heading North

These are some photos taken on a trip to Up North of New Zealand on [1/oct/2005].

North Land

North Land Landscape

Motel

Breakfast

Free Air

This is Where 2 Oceans Meet

The Bay

The Ocean

Cape Reinga Lighthouse

Lighthouse

From the Top

Insect

What Flower is it?

Thursday, September 29, 2005

My Graduation Day

First of all, thanks to my friends- Bong Seth, Bong Thydy, Rith, Tra, and Waza (alphabetically ordered)- for this cute teddy bear in regalia and more importantly for coming over to join my capping ceremony and I want to say I really appreciate that. That's so nice of all of you guys.

I only asked these friends of mine to come over. Well, I didn't ask the girlz downstair and my sister because they were going to Tauranga for a trip so I didn't want to ruin her plan and decided not to tell them. They might have been mad at me when they knew it but I hope they were not mad at me after all.

Oh, I also got these txt messages from my beloved brother and sister.
My brother's:

Congratulation brother. I am very happy and nearly burst into tear.

My sister's:

You look so gorgeous Bong! Have fun ok? I didn't even know you were graduating today! but I still love you though! you look adorable!

Arent' they sweet? :)
For this post, I just wanna show my gratitude toward the people I mentioned here. I love you all. *Hugz*

Here are some more of today photoz: http://www.flickr.com/photos/26398206@N00/sets/1031404/
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Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Apsara

I haven't taken any photos lately so to keep my blog going I would post some of of my old photos.

Siem Riep, Cambodia

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

As Unique As Your DNA

Do you want an eye-catching abstract art piece which is truly unique to you in the whole world? As long as your DNA is unique(Of course, it is) DNA11 is there to give that. Just provide a sample of your saliva and a few hundred bucks (according to the size of the canvas you want), you will have that unique art piece for hanging on your wall.

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Childhood Favorite Movies

I've just got back from MoMo Tea (milk tea shop). I went there with friends and we spent like more than an hour sitting and talking about lots of things again just like normal hanging out. The last thing we talked about was what were our favorite movies when we were child. I thought a few seconds then I recalled this movie (The Sword in the Stone[1963]) but I couldn't recall the title of the movie. I got home and did a little googling hehe I found it. What was yours?

[Added] I was about to sleep but I recalled one cartoon as my head touched my pillow. It's a Russian cartoon, called Nu Pogodi. It is all about a Wolf and a Hare. I loved this movie so much. I watched this cartoon long before I watched the movie I mentioned above. Most of you who in the same generation as mine I mean the same age and of course you were in Cambodia at that time should know it. Just recalling it, I really wanna watch it again so bad :( Oh, I want this movie in a DVD or VCD for my birthday present heheh.

[from: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Image:Nu_pogodi_by_vjacheslav_kotenochkin.jpg]

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Cambodian Artists' Visions of the Future

I have found this page on the web. It sounds interesting to me and I think it might be interesting to some of you too so I decided to post it here. It's an comtemporary art exhibition. Reyum hosted this exhibition in 2002, it is quite a long time ago but those artworks are really spectacular. The theme of the exhibition is "Vision of the Future". As far as I am concered most of artists showed their perspectives about future of Cambodia through their works. Enjoy!

[from: http://www.reyum.org/exhibitions/exhibition13/exhibition13.htm]

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Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Take a Knife and Stab Through My Heart [R18]

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You grab a knife tightly in your hand. Tear my shirt off. Put your other hand on my left chest to feel the beat of my heart. You've found where my heart is. Now put a cross sign on where you want to run the knife into. There you are. Hold your hand with the knife up in the air. Now, it is time. You violently drop your hand and run the knife into where you have marked. You made it. Now, you twist the knife inside of me. Yeah, it hurts. This wound will turn into a scar and it will last forever. Thanks for giving such a painful experience and good luck on your new journey.

DISCLAIMER: Never practice this to yourself or others. This (a piece of writing above) is not a real incident. It is not what you perceived, it suggests other meaning in diffrent context.

[Making the pic: I took a photo of this kitchen knife, drew a love heart shape, did a little paint job (to bring the volume to the shape), again drew the wound and a drop of blood. Finally, drew a knife shadow on the heart and put some fx, that's it.]
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Monday, September 19, 2005

A Mission Statement

This is a mission statement written by my roommate, Waza. This mission is called "Panh Chod", it's a rude a word in Punjabi so I appologize for that. This post is related to "My Last-2-Days" post.

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Sunday, September 18, 2005

Chocoland

This is a small set-up ad for Chocolate Factory at the lobby of Village cinema in St.Luke Westfield shopping mall.

date photo take 06/Sept/05

Saturday, September 17, 2005

My Last-2-days Lyfe

Just today that I had enough sleep. I feel abit alive now. For the last 2 days, I had only 4 or 5 hours sleep only, hehe for 2 days. That sounds unhealthy, I know but I just can't help it u know. My assignment due date is chasing me but it's not all because of it. Ok, I stayed up in school lab late till like 4. I came home and hoping to sleep right away but I couldn't maybe because of the high amount of caffeine in the cafee and tea I consumed but that's all good for me though. I still could do my assignment after I got home. I continued till like 6am and I felt abit sleepy and decided to hit the bed. I was watching my ceiling for about 15 minutes or something and then I felt alsleep. Well, before falling asleep I thought I would sleep till 10 or 11am.

School Lab

I woke up and I didn't know what time it was. Well, I thought it would be around 10am. But thing is I felt like I was in the crowd of people. Actually, there were 2 of my roommates talking and shouting. They went blah blah blah. That was so freaking loud. It sounds like they were fighting but it wasn't. It's just their ways of talking to each other. Well, I don't wanna mention where are they from. That might sound racist. Why didn't I told them to shut their fking mouths up? I told them already twice and banged the on wall many times to let them know that they should shut up or keep their voices down. Well, they're not 5 years old kids. They should understand and remember it after a few notices but they just don't care at all. How disrespecful?

I was shivering under my blanket, it's not because that I was naked but it due to the lack of sleep. I grabbed my phone from the table close to my bed and looked at the time. Omg, it was just 8:00am. I tried to sleep again but I couldn't because their voices were too loud. You should know how loud it is because you know how tiring it is to stay up till 6am and I would be like sleeping like a dead man in bed no matter what is going on around me. I guess you can imagine. My heart started to pumping faster. It was racing against their voices. It's getting weaker by second. I thought I needed some help from my one of my mate from my bookshelf. I tried to get on feet and there I found Korn cd. I dropped it into my computer's cdrom drive, turned my external speakers up loud (well, I couldn't put it to the maxinum because there's another roomate to the otherside side of my room and I had to say sorry to him. But he used to tell me to do so sometimes when 2 guys make noise. that's why I did it), faced my speakers to their side, I pressed play button on the iTune5 program and there it went nice and loud. You know how Korn musik sounds like aye. It's loud and rough, so rough but I like it. I hadn't been able to play it because when I play I need to turn it loud, otherwise it's crap and I had been considering that I wasn't the only one in the apartment. But that was the time to put it on and let it rocks.

My KoRn Album

I went back to my bed and covered my self with my blanket. After a while, I felt energized, I got up and did some push-ups and still let the music go. And then they shut up or left the apartment I didn't know. Then I took a shower and changed my music to the soft one. I dressed up and left for school because I had class at 11am. My day began again.

Leaving in a student hostel can be so much fun but also it can be freaking annoying when your roommates are from HELL, they don't do their dishes just after they used them, they don't clean up the rubbish, and more importantly when they use your stuff, and left it unclean. And that is so chaotic.

Here's my suggestion for sharing the living space. Please DO respect your neighbours. Because people tend to do things that might hurt others mentally and physically and the only thing that can keep us from doing that is RESPECT. If you come or see my room, you'll know that it's stuffy and smelly and variety of things on the floor. But believe me, I DO care about sharing space. Since i've been here I only left my pot unwashed for half a day ONCE because I overcooked the food so I had to leave the pot in the water before I cleaned it. One more suggestion in the sense of sharing space, if you DON'T clean up, DON'T mess it up.

Cheers.
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Thursday, September 15, 2005

Khmok

I have this Khmok(mask) on my pin-up board. It is a miniature one so we can't wear it hehe. Anyways, let's find out information about it.

http://www.mcfa.gov.kh/Artisan_Skills/mask_making.php
http://www.reyum.org/media/misc-articles/khmer-mask-making.htm

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Friday, September 09, 2005

P Sign (not Parking)

Hehe P is not for Parking ok. Last night, I could not sleep and I came up with an idea that I should had designed a sign for myself (for blog and chat display pic). Finally, I got all these prototypes. I made everything from the scratch. The P letter I designed earlier for my blog icon, as you can see in the address bar. The big one (sign), I imitate mac style but I couldn't make it look as sleek as it looks on mac hehe. For me, umm... I like the gray one (at the buttom) the most. What you think? Don't tell me you don't like all of them hehe. Put them in order of your preference and tell me which one you like the most. Oh, I almost forgot to you that P stands for my firstname and my last name. Cheers.

click on it to enlarge

Thursday, September 08, 2005

My Pin-Up Board

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

One Cuddly Birdie

@ Long Bay

Sunday, September 04, 2005

A Small Wood

This small wood is between my hostel and my previous school (Unitec) in New Zealand. I had to walk pass this place every single day (the place I walk pass everyday recently) It took about 5 minutes to get to my class from the hostel. I really liked this place. It's so green and quiet but a bit scary when it's dark. The hostel faces to the main road which is quite busy in the day but if you only just turn around there's another world, which is so peaceful so serence. You can see now why I liked that place. Have a look at the photos.